I’ve come way too far and accomplished way too much to let something, no, someone so insignificant bring me down.
I gave my heart and soul and everything I had plus more to EVERYTHING I did this year. And you know what? 99.9% of it worked out. Better than that, I got more than I could ever dream of. I interned for a national newspaper, got published on the front page. I got to establish a presence shooting the Hershey Bears hockey team and made some amazing connections and developed a super huge place in my heart for everyone and everything involved with that organization. I had the most incredible department review and even had teachers come up to me days afterwards reaffirming their beliefs that I’m doing well and they have such high hopes for me. I got to photograph the DC United soccer team three times just because their organization was kind enough to allow me in to build my portfolio and try something new, and they loved my photos and asked me for help one weekend when their usual photographer for the sort of thing wasn’t available.
I expected nothing, I worked my ass off, and look where I’ve gotten. I still can’t believe the experiences I’ve had, the people I’ve met, or the contacts I still get to keep in touch with.
I’m so proud of myself, my family is proud of me, my friends are proud of me, and that is all I could ever ask for.
The fact that none of this means anything to just one single person shouldn’t matter, and it doesn’t. I’m beyond needing you in my life. I’m still hurt, of course, and I still feel like there’s something missing, but I just saw where your heart lies and how quickly you break every promise and every “truth” you ever told so maybe this was a good thing and lord knows everyone saw it coming sooner or later. You said you’d always be there but you haven’t responded to my texts, which I think I was secretly hoping for anyways.
I’m excited for what’s to come in the future. I’m excited to keep working and doing what I love because I know that I’m one of the few people in the world fortunate enough to be able to say that I am pursuing my dream career and succeeding in doing so thus far.
There is no stopping point for me, there is only up up up from here.
Thank you, thank you to everyone who’s been there no matter how far away you are, how many times we’ve spoken in our lifetimes, or how many times we’ve even met. Thank you to those who’ve given me opportunities to grow and who’ve supported me even if we barely know eachother or if your’e sick of me because we’ve known eachother too long.
Maybe some people can be content with whatever they can get scraped off the crust of the earth, but me? I’m going somewhere.